Take the break. YOU need it!!

It’s been 3 months into recovery since I got injured from a trip to Samoa on February this year. I fractured my rib and was bed ridden for almost two months due to a serious staph infection on my leg. Having to go through this recovery process was very difficult for me, both physically and mentally. If you know me well, you will find that I am an “always-on-the-go” type of person. When I get a minute, I would either be reading, studying, running or researching, applying for jobs. My never-ending quest for purpose. I never realized how much my body needed the rest, until I got into the accident. It was very difficult for me to stay in bed and have my family provide for everything I needed. I was frustrated that I wasn’t able to walk around to get my own food, take a shower, go to town, catch up with friends, go out for a run and do everything that I use to occupy my time with. I’ve never appreciated life so much, until I got bed-ridden. And for the first time in my life, I was so scared. I was scared that I might not be able to recover fast enough, or soon enough for me to get back to the things I used to do. I was scared that I would lose out on the job opportunities waiting for me, because there I was lying in bed all day, begging my body to HURRY up and heal. I was scared that I wasn’t going to be able to fly back to Hawaii, and see all the friends I left behind. I cried most of the times because I was filling my head with all the good things that my recovery time was taking away from me.

When I woke up one morning, I saw from my bedroom window my family going about their usual daily activities. My sister was making me breakfast, my dad was getting ready to drop the boys off to school, my mom was watering her plants and boy in that very moment! It hit me. It hit me that I was wasting my days grumbling about what I wasn’t able to do instead of embracing the fact that there I was in the presence of my family. I have the opportunity to see what their daily routines are like. I had the time to talk with my sister and my mom about life and chit chat with my dad about my future endeavors. In that very moment I realized, that the only true things that mattered most in life, are the people that surrounded you with nothing but love. You can be on the go 24/7 but when life hits you hard, you fall back into the hands of your family and your loved ones. How lucky I was to have such a loving and supporting family. How lucky I was that I was able to take a month off to recover and just be with them everyday.  

We as individuals are always on the go, everyday all day. But you find that when you take the time to sit down and ponder over the things that keep you busy, you realize that everything you’re worrying about are meaningless. You’re busy hustling to make ends meet, to complete your tasks at work, to do more and do greater everyday. What we don’t realize is that life is happening right in front of us. I learned from my 3 months off work, that I did not want to occupy by days anymore with just going to work 8am to 5pm everyday and come home all drained out and still push myself to my never ending quest of finding my life purpose – apply for jobs, find another job, go for a run etc.

I wanted everything to just STOP! And so I slowed myself down. I took the rest and I spend every minute speaking life over myself. Encouraging my heart that I will be able to do everything again, but first I needed to REST! I owe it to my body to take the time out. Tomorrow (May 6th, 2019), I will be returning to work and yes, I’m back in Hawaii. I feel fully refreshed and I know I’m ready to go back out there. At least now I am very conscious that I need to be more specific with my days and use up my time investing as much as I do in my job as I should in myself. I was listening to a podcast this morning from Michael B Jordan, and he so wisely advised, if you could tell yourself one thing, it would be to LIVE FOR YOU!  Finding yourself, loving who you are, and investing in your growth is not selfish. You have so much to give to the world, but in order for you to do that, you need to show up and show out. If you need to take a rest, go for it. Because you need to be in the best version of yourself in order to succeed. From stagnation, I found my revelation, and so will you!

Life is a constant battle.So keep walking!!

I think learning to capture your thoughts and seize negativity before it establishes itself in your head, is definitely a task in itself. I mean seriously! I have come to realize that we easily accept negative thoughts more than we do positive ones. So it becomes a task for us to renew our minds and battle through every thought that is often contradictory to what you believe you deserve and to what you are striving towards in life. Most of what helps me overcome negative thoughts is by meditating on God’s word. Reminding myself that I am more than a conqueror and that I am enough and sufficient. I have come to learn that speaking life over yourself is very important. You are all you’ve got, and you are all you have.

Self-love is very important. You need to give your heart a break and give your mind the rest it needs. Instead of constantly worrying and thinking about what to do, where to go from here, how to get to B from A; take that one crucial minute to BREATHE.  If what you are trying to figure out is not coming to you today, try tomorrow, and the next day and so forth. The best thing you have to do is never to give up.

Today I came across a very crucial statement from my LSAT Trainer book by Mike Kim, which states “The best way to ensure success is to deserve it”. I couldn’t agree more.  Instead of striving for your dreams as a one-way get away ticket from your current situation, strive for your dreams because you deserve the expected outcomes.  Strive for your dreams because you know for certain that you were born into this world to do more than just LIVE.  Finding your purpose is worth it. You never know what you’re capable of until you walk out the door and see for yourself.  Life is a journey worth walking. When you come to that point in your life where you feel defeated, tired, worn out, exhausted and feel like just giving it all up; REMEMBER, that stepping back into the door you walk out from, is like jumping back into a dark hole that had no light, no purpose, no direction and no hope. So isn’t it better to keep walking away from that door?

No matter what you do, and how you feel, remember to always fail forward. You are capable, you are enough and you are more than a conqueror. Pray hard and work tirelessly. Even if it seems like the road keeps getting longer and darker, remember that whatever is at the end of that road, is worth more than what you left behind you. One day you will look back and remember, that you have won the battle because you believed you are worth the reward. You earned that success. So don’t ever give up. Stay persistent and keep moving forward. You might just be ‘three feet away from that gold’.

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