It’s been 3 months into recovery since I got injured from a trip to Samoa on February this year. I fractured my rib and was bed ridden for almost two months due to a serious staph infection on my leg. Having to go through this recovery process was very difficult for me, both physically and mentally. If you know me well, you will find that I am an “always-on-the-go” type of person. When I get a minute, I would either be reading, studying, running or researching, applying for jobs. My never-ending quest for purpose. I never realized how much my body needed the rest, until I got into the accident. It was very difficult for me to stay in bed and have my family provide for everything I needed. I was frustrated that I wasn’t able to walk around to get my own food, take a shower, go to town, catch up with friends, go out for a run and do everything that I use to occupy my time with. I’ve never appreciated life so much, until I got bed-ridden. And for the first time in my life, I was so scared. I was scared that I might not be able to recover fast enough, or soon enough for me to get back to the things I used to do. I was scared that I would lose out on the job opportunities waiting for me, because there I was lying in bed all day, begging my body to HURRY up and heal. I was scared that I wasn’t going to be able to fly back to Hawaii, and see all the friends I left behind. I cried most of the times because I was filling my head with all the good things that my recovery time was taking away from me.
When I woke up one morning, I saw from my bedroom window my family going about their usual daily activities. My sister was making me breakfast, my dad was getting ready to drop the boys off to school, my mom was watering her plants and boy in that very moment! It hit me. It hit me that I was wasting my days grumbling about what I wasn’t able to do instead of embracing the fact that there I was in the presence of my family. I have the opportunity to see what their daily routines are like. I had the time to talk with my sister and my mom about life and chit chat with my dad about my future endeavors. In that very moment I realized, that the only true things that mattered most in life, are the people that surrounded you with nothing but love. You can be on the go 24/7 but when life hits you hard, you fall back into the hands of your family and your loved ones. How lucky I was to have such a loving and supporting family. How lucky I was that I was able to take a month off to recover and just be with them everyday.
We as individuals are always on the go, everyday all day. But you find that when you take the time to sit down and ponder over the things that keep you busy, you realize that everything you’re worrying about are meaningless. You’re busy hustling to make ends meet, to complete your tasks at work, to do more and do greater everyday. What we don’t realize is that life is happening right in front of us. I learned from my 3 months off work, that I did not want to occupy by days anymore with just going to work 8am to 5pm everyday and come home all drained out and still push myself to my never ending quest of finding my life purpose – apply for jobs, find another job, go for a run etc.
I wanted everything to just STOP! And so I slowed myself down. I took the rest and I spend every minute speaking life over myself. Encouraging my heart that I will be able to do everything again, but first I needed to REST! I owe it to my body to take the time out. Tomorrow (May 6th, 2019), I will be returning to work and yes, I’m back in Hawaii. I feel fully refreshed and I know I’m ready to go back out there. At least now I am very conscious that I need to be more specific with my days and use up my time investing as much as I do in my job as I should in myself. I was listening to a podcast this morning from Michael B Jordan, and he so wisely advised, if you could tell yourself one thing, it would be to LIVE FOR YOU! Finding yourself, loving who you are, and investing in your growth is not selfish. You have so much to give to the world, but in order for you to do that, you need to show up and show out. If you need to take a rest, go for it. Because you need to be in the best version of yourself in order to succeed. From stagnation, I found my revelation, and so will you!